Weekend getaway!

Saturday; April 05, 2014

Late post! He-he. Cannot actually update because we were so busy fixing our requirements for our OJT, no time for editing and stuff ha-ha. But nevertheless, here's a "re-cap" of what we did last Sunday with my beautiful girls, (Jesti, Gela and Rachel) :)

"My love for these girls is way above the sky." - Rachel Venus

NEW LIFE!

Let me/us take a selfie :P

Mini Shabu-Shabu for dinnuuuuuuuuuuh! =P~

A rock that I get from High Street's ground. Haha! Collecting rocks from the places that I've been through is now my new "hobby" =))

And video for my vlog. Lol

When? How? Why?

Tuesday; April 01, 2014

I’m in to blogging since 2009, it started all in Tumblr, and most of my posts there are reblogs. That time, I thought that if I post personal blogs there, followers will not be interested on reading it or they’ll think that I’m seeking for attention (HAHA seriously, that’s what I thought about that time) LOL so year 2010, I decided to transfer on Blogger for my personal blogs and I think that Blogger is way better and formal than Tumblr, like you’ll be able to post everything that you want without being judged or something. And that’s the end of the story, lol just kidding haha. By the way, if you wish to search for my Tumblr URL, I already deactivated my account there for some reasons that I am not in to it anymore, and I haven’t visit it for a long time since I transfer to Blogger, so there. :))

Unfortunately, I wasn’t able to manage this blog every day, like, I wasn’t able to post every day or every other day. Like, I will only be able to post a blog every day when I’m happy, depressed or not busy, haha.

But despite of that thing, this blog has something here in my heart; it’s like my dear diary, which has always been there for me, especially when I am depressed. It’s like a person where I tell ALL of my rants in my life, then it’s just there, will not complain, will just listen. So don’t be surprised if 90% of what you’ll read here are full of dramas, lol. I promise that I will manage this blog every day, if not every day, well every other day. Haha! And I will try to post food, travel, ootd’s and book review blogs. (Feelingera) HAHA!

To end this…

I would like to take this opportunity, hahaha, to thank MS. Rachel Gem Venus for inspiring me to blog every day, lol. She’s one of the reasons why I came back, (Balik loob lang ang peg?) Hahaha. Why I decided to manage my blog every day. I am a BIG FAN of her, since I’ve read all of her blogs, haha. So Rachel, if you’re reading this, hello! Haha. She’s also the reason why I am now also in to VLOGGING haha. I hope that we'll still have a lot of time to cherish moments together. Bakit kasi ngayon lang? Haha. MORE BONDING PLEASE, yun tipong every week we’ll go out and go to church, hihi. Pwede ba yun? Please, make it possible! Haha. Love you, Rachel! Thank you so so much! :-*

Read her blogs and follow her also here!!! Her Blogger URL is: mspoopypants.blogspot.com and you can subscribe on her YouTube channel, its: xoxohoneybunchxoxo or just search her name, Rachel Venus. :)

And there she is... Lol. I actually grabbed these pictures on her FB photos, haha. Love her to bits! :D

 At Mini Shabu Shabu Bonifacio High Street

At Araneta Coliseum after PASSION's life changing concert. "Let me take a selfie" lol

I missed A LOT.

Tuesday; April 01, 2014 - Happy April Fools! :D

So yeah, I really missed A LOT. I miss you, blogger/blogpost! Been busy for the past few months because of school. So today, later, haha, as long as I finish what I need to do for school AGAIN... I’m gonna blog all the highlights of my year 2014 for the past 2 or 3 months? I’m kinda lucky this year… For the past few months that have passed, well, I can say that I am really blessed. So there, just sit back and relax, lol. BLOG POSTS are cominggggggggggg!!! (later, lol. I’m going to fix first my OJT requirements and I’m going to sleep first, haha!)

And by the way, I am now also in to VLOGGING!!! Yey! Hahaha! Thank you to the one who inspired me to do that thing. Lol. Thank you, Rachel! I’ll blog something especially for you girl, haha, just wait. ;)

Subscribe in to my YouTube channel, it’s… IHEART26 so jej, haha! I did that YouTube channel way back in year 2010, so please don’t judge. HAHA! Unfortunately, it can’t be changed anymore. :( If you can’t find it, just search my name, Nicole Bernal. If you guys really can't find it... It is linked up there on my blog title. Hihi. 

Thank you guys! :*

Maybe, it's not enough. Maybe, I am not enough.

It feels like this is my first time to write a blog. I can't even remember how I start when I am posting at my blog. But well, that's not the issue here.

Hmm. Lately, I've been feeling so lonely. I don't even know why... Is it because of my school? Or is it because of my relationship? I don't know.

I am feeling so down right now. I really feel so unappreciated and unwanted... I don't know what did I do why I'm feeling this way. I am putting 200% of myself & effort in everything that I'm doing. But then, it feels like NO ONE appreciates it. The feeling of, you've done what they want you to do, you put so much effort on it. But still, they won't see your effort & sometimes they'll just ignore it. 

I'm asking myself, is it not enough? Why do some people don't know the word APPRECIATION. Man, just, why? 

Everyday, it's getting harder and harder.

Someday...

Sunday; September 02, 2010-- 18 days before my birthday!

Sometimes I'm thinking if I can have a one day treatment for myself. Wherein I'll just enjoy the day, do whatever I want, go wherever I want to go, and just be happy in a day or maybe a week. Teehee :D Like, I won't think of my problems, I'll just think of how will I be happy on that day.

These are the things that I really would love to do:

1. Go to Santorini, Greece- Every girl wants to go to Paris, but me, I really would love to go in Greece. I don't know why, but I think, Greece is such a lovely place to go to. And the history of it, I love Greek Mythology, lol. Seriously. ;) Second place I want to go to is Korea, third, London and lastly, Italy. :)

2. Light a lantern- Like in Tangled, wherein Rapunzel lit a lantern and witness the beauty of those thousands of lanterns floating in the sky, it's like lighting up my whole world.

3. Sky Diving- I'm kinda an adventurous person. Like I want to try everything in life, and sky diving is one of the thing that I want to try, feels like I'm flying.

4. Bungee Jumping- Like what I've said, I want to try everything, even it's kinda scary and knee-shaking.

5. Go to Amusement Park- I'll try all their rides, and be happy just like a kid. Buy cotton candy and wish on a well. Hihi :")

6. Be an Adventurer- I'll try all the adventures in life.. Uhmm, what I mean is... This... Go ride a cable cab, zip line, mountain climbing, ride a bike, motor cross, car race, ride a horse, go to caves and discover new things, jump in a mountain and swim. :)) And many mooooooooore! Woohoo! It sounds very tiring, but I know, I'll enjoy it, will really enjoy it. :D

7. Travel the whole world- I just want to witness the beauty of the world. :)

And lastly, I want to go to a silent place. Where I can scream all the things that I want to say, scream all my problems. Reflect on things, and relax. I'll be the happiest person if I found a silent place, where I can be alone, no pollution, no noisy people.

These are the things that will make me happy, really happy. Sounds impossible, but I'll do everything just to make these things be possible. :)

God. Faith. Sin. Existence.

Friday; August 03, 2012

Should this post be in English, Filipino, Korean, Chinese? LOL. Maybe, I'll just use TagLish, Conyo language... Like really, like puhrungggg. =)) No offense to those conyo people out there. Conyo is cool! :-bd I even use that language when I'm talking to my friends... Pag trip namin, haha. Or even to those people who are naturally born conyo. Oh how I miss Justine Silvino, best conyo person ever! Whaaaat? :))

But this blog post is not about languages guys. It's about our lesson in Philosophy of Man a while ago. Yeah, I attended my class, lol. Can someone give me an award?

Well, our lesson a while ago is about Existentialism. They are the one who doesn't have God, or doesn't believe in God. They just believe in existence. That's what I heard a while ago, correct me if I'm wrong.

Okay. Di ko na kaya. Mag tatagalog na ko! :))

Sabi nun prof ko kanina, "Tignan niyo, mas makasalanan pa ang mga Kristyano, kasi, alam nila, after nun ginawa nilang kasalanan, may pag mapapatawad sakanila, which is God."

Tama nga naman yun prof ko, mas marami ang mga ma-kasalanan na Kristyano, mas maraming Kristyano ang engage sa Pre-marital sex, (eto lang kasi yun example niya kanina) at kung ano ano pang kasalanan ang pwedeng magawa ng isang tao.

Catholic ako, pero hindi ako katulad ng ibang Catholics na O.A sa pagiging isang Katoliko. Minsan nga, nakakalimutan ko pa mag dasal bago matulog, I didn't even go to mass every Sunday. Pag ata may prayer lang bago mag start yun class ako nakakapag pray eh. Am I already a devil? Kasi hindi ko nagagampanan ang pagiging Kristyano ko?

Pag ba nagmura ako ng sunod sunod ng malulutong na mura, demonyo na ko? Pag ba hindi ako nagbasa ng bible araw araw, sobrang makasalanan na ko? If I'm not mistaken, walang rules na nag eexist na ganun. May nabanggit ba sa Bible na pag hindi mo 'to binasa, mapupunta ka na sa impyerno? Wala naman di ba? Yes, there are 10 Commandments. Is these 10 rules are followed by those Catholics/Christians that are existing? I think not. Most of them, sinusuway pa. And I'm guilty with that.

Hindi mo kailangan magpaka-santo para lang mapunta sa langit. Hindi mo kailangan mag recite ng pagkadami daming dasal, para lang masabi na "Holy person" ka. Yun mga pastor, priest, bishop... Sa tingin niyo, hindi nagkakasala yan mga yan? We don't have to be a trying-hard person para lang mapunta ka sa langit. Hindi mo rin kailangan magkaroon ng relihiyon para lang masabi na naniniwala ka kay God.

Hindi mo kailangan mag Thank you bawat segundo, para lang masabi na you're a God-loving person. Though, syempre, as a sign of gratitude to God, maging thankful pa din tayo sa mga bagay bagay na nabigay. Pero wag yun O.A... One thank you and sorry is enough. You have Him right? You believe that He can hear and see you. Kaya pag may nagawa kang kasalanan, nakikita niya na yon. At pag nakita na niyang nagsisisi ka, mapapatawad ka niya.

With this blog post, I'm not saying that I don't believe in Him and I don't consider Him as my God. What I want to tell is that, wag tayong maging O.A sa mga bagay bagay katulad nito. Tao ka, nagkakamali, gustong maka-experience ng mga dapat i-experience sa mundong ito.

We are humans, we exist, we are sinners. Hindi lahat ng makakasalamuha mo, mabait. Hindi lahat ng mangyayari sa buhay mo, maganda. We have to accept the fact that those things happen. Na kahit anong iwas mo pa sa pag gawa ng kasalanan, hindi mo 'to maiiwasan.

Marami akong kilala na "O.A" sa pagiging Kristyano, O.A sa paniniwala kay God. Every Sunday, nasa simbahan yon/sila, hindi nga lang ata Sunday eh. Kung magdasal yon/sila, dalawang minuto ata. Pero ano, hindi sila ganun ka-linis. They are not that HOLY. Kasi, hindi nila alam, may mga actions sila na kasalanan na pala ang nagagawa nila.

Meron pa. He's a ReEd professor, tinuturo niya, mga Moral sins, Moral Acts and etc. About Christian Morality ang tinuturo niya, pero ano, he didn't know how to apply it on himself. Close-minded person, and napaka inconsiderate na prof. Christian Morality? Sure ka bang binasa mo yan tinuturo mo? Sorry guys, pero bitter pa din talaga ako sa prof na 'to.

O dba, may mga tao talaga na sadyang marunong mag malinis, magpaka Diyos, at bait baitan. Para lang masabi na they are "Holy one". Pero hindi ata nila alam kung ano talaga yun ginagawa nila at isinasapuso nila.

Don't judge me on this post. Don't even hate me. I just want to express or say what I've realize a while ago listening to my Philosophy of Man prof. Kahit nga hindi ko pa siya naririnig kanina eh, matagal ko na rin naiisip 'to.

I repeat. I don't hate God. I do believe in Him. I do have faith in Him. Pero hindi ko kailangan lumuhod sa simba habang papalapit sa altar para lang mapatunayan na naniniwala ako sakanya. Hindi ko kailangan mag recite ng isang libong dasal para lang mapatunayan na naniniwala ako sakanya. Hindi ko kailangan tawagin lahat ng santo para lang masabi na maka-Diyos ako.

I'm thankful with what He gives. And I'm sorry for what I've done. One prayer a day is enough to prove that you believe in Him.

I am.

Friday; January 13, 2012- Friday the 13th! Me not unlucky at all. :D

This would be my first entry for the year 2012. Yey! And it's all about me. ;)

Who is Nicole Baldemor- Bernal?



Extro/Introvert
I laugh, I share thoughts, I talk, communicate, socialize. But every time I have a problem, I just keep it. I don't share it with others, especially, if I'm hurt. I solve it by myself. Even the most trusted friend that I have don't know what is happening to me, if I have a problem or what.

Positive
I always go for what I want, even though I only have 20%, 10% chance of having it. Or achieving it. I always say to myself, "I can do it!". I know, we can get what we want, what we want to achieve, just believe in yourself that you can.

Confident
I just have to. Without confidence, other people will just step on you. Chin up! Be proud! ;)

Clean-freak
I don't like mess. I think, everyone does. Even though I'm a lazy cat, every time I see mess around me, automatically, I'll be a "super woman" cleaning those mess. :)) Seriously.

Jovial
Being happy is not a crime. Laughing is a must. Be happy, be Budoy! =)))) Loljk. Be happy always, it makes you look beautiful. ;)

Cry-baby
I'm jovial, but, my tears run down easily every time I'm hurt. Happy, problematic, or even though I'm just watching a "show" on TV. Hahaha!

Jealous/Jealousy?
Hahaha! I don't know what word will I put. Hmm, btw, I easily get jealous. And I don't know why. -________- Even though you're just my friend, then you found a new one then you're already ignoring me, tadaaaaaaaaaaa, expect, that I'll get jealous on it.

Afraid to love
Not actually afraid to love, I'm afraid to get hurt, AGAIN. And I don't want other people to be hurt because of me. "Mabuti ng ako na lang yun nasasaktan, wag na yun ibang tao..."



Outgoing, Sensitive, Optimist, Dreamer, Achiever. :D

Strength
GOD, FAMILY, FRIENDS. Without them, I AM NOTHING. Especially God, because without Him, there's no such "Nicole Bernal" living in this world. I owe Him my life.

Weakness
FAMILY & FRIENDS. They are my happiness, they are my life. I don't know what will happen if I lose them. I love them and I'll always be thankful because I have my family and my friends. :)

I'm just a normal person living in this world. I'm not here to please anyone, if you like me, if you love me, if you want me to be your friend, then go. I don't choose people who I'll get to know, and to be my friend. If you hate me, I don't fucking care, go hate! That's what you want, I've got nothing to do with that. :)

Me, myself, don't know, or doesn't know who am really I. I'm just saying what I see on myself, what I discover on myself. We, people have different perceptive in life. We all have our own opinions, and judgment to every person that we'll meet. Thant's life, know how to risk. Know how to stop and go. Know how to enjoy life, because, like what Papa Chen said, "Life is too short". We don't know when it will end.

I live, laugh & love. ♥