First!

Friday; December 25, 2015

To my dearest,

This was supposed to be written in papers in a jar that you just have to pick one and read it. However, since we have a lot of time **sarcastic tone**, unfortunately, I was not able to do it. Maybe next time, and I will really prepare on it, without me having caught with my surprise, lol.


Whyne, I know I keep on saying this but for the 100th time or more, I want you to know that I'm really grateful to have you in my life. You came just right in time. I never thought that it would take two years till I found the one, till I found my true love. It is just one month, but it's like years already that we've been together.


Every day, you never fail to put a smile on my face. Every day, you never fail to show how much you really love me, and how much you really care. You've been so selfless and so kind, you always think about me first, and how I will be happy. Thank you so much for everything! These words are not enough to tell you how grateful I am because of you. I hope nothing will change between us. I love you so much, and I will be loving you more every day. Happy First to us! And a lifetime to go! I love you, my dearest Whyne! Thank you so much for everything! :)

W + N = First month, and a lifetime to go!

Monday; December 21, 2015

“It’s not about how long you’ve known the person, it’s about the recognition…”

I still can’t believe that I am now in a relationship with a man who truly loves me, where every day I can feel that his love was true and sincere. It’s already been a month, but I still get the same butterflies whenever I saw him. I may get a chance to see him every day and to be with him every day, still I get excited whenever I am arriving at the office knowing he’s there and waiting for me and will give me the sweetest smile that is so priceless. I am in love every day, I am in love with him every day, and I will never get tired of him, I will never get tired of the feeling.

I can’t explain how happy I am to finally meet that someone who can fulfill my dreams, and to love me truly and sincerely. I am grateful every day that he came in to my life. Waited for two years, and it’s all worth it! I never thought that I will be in love again, that my heart will felt so much happiness again, that real happiness. I never thought that someone will love me the way I want to be loved. I remember that I promised myself, if ever I got a chance to have a boyfriend again, I promised to myself that he will be the last, he will be the one I’ll marry, and he’ll be the one whom I’ll be in the future with. And I can feel that he is really the one. I don’t have any regrets, this coming 25^th will be our first month, but as early as now, I can feel that he will be the one that I’m spending my life, my future with.

He made me feel again, he made me feel that true love is worth the wait. He made me feel that I am worth it, that I deserve to be happy, that we deserve to be happy. He made me feel that despite of my flaws, there is someone who will still see the good in you, that will made you feel you are perfect.

“And as he kissed me, I felt my soul reincarnate, my heart made up for all the beats it had skipped in a flourish of thumps, my face and hands tingled numbly, I began to see stars, and that was it. That is how I knew what it felt like to live.” – Jared Brighten

I am the happiest when I’m with him, and I really, really love the feeling. Posting this now, because I might forgot to post this exactly on the 25^th, because I have work, zzzz. Nevertheless…

Hi Whyne! Thank you so much for everything! You might tell me it’s not necessary, but for me it is! Thank you for the love, for understanding me, thank you for being so real and humble. I can’t thank you enough, saying thank you every day is not enough to show how grateful I am that you finally came in to my life. I am so happy, I am so blessed to have you in my life. I love you yesterday, I love you today, I love you tomorrow, and I love you for the rest of our lives! Happy first month to us! Cheers to our first month and to lifetime! I love you so much, Whyne U. Viriña!

“Should this be the last thing I see? I want you to know it’s enough for me. ‘Cause all that you are is all that I’ll ever need…”

Tadhana.

Sunday; November 22, 2015

“Wondering what it’d be like to know someone like you…”

It started on a friend request that I received last November 1, 2015, which I got curious of. Seeing that we have a lot of mutual friends and we’re working in the same company, so I accepted his friend request.

He really got me.

I really got curious who is “he”, every day I look on his profile and asking myself who is he, do I see him in the operations floor, is he from the morning or graveyard shift… Until I saw him one time on the operations floor, but the curiosity did not stop. Still, I searched for his Facebook profile to know more about him, and by stalking, I discovered that we got “a lot” of things in common, and felt that he’s so nice, and it triggered me to know more about him, not just by “stalking” his profile, but the real getting to know each other, lol. And you know by that, it means that I like him.

Until this week, November 17, 2015, when he first smiled at me and the first time we actually “talked”. Then it goes, I asked him to teach me his skills in vector, surprisingly, he agreed. Little did he know, I have other intention when I asked him to teach me. Ha-ha!

Yesterday. November 21, 2015, when I get to know him more. And after two-years, that is the first time again that I felt so much happiness that I cannot really put in to words. You know that feeling that after two-years you guarded your heart, you have those walls, last night, those walls disappeared like nothing had happened two-years ago. That is also the first time, when I really talked about everything without this hesitation that this person that I’m talking with right now will or might judge me after this. First time we really talked, but it feels like already years that I know him. You know that feeling that, I can talk to this man every day without getting bored, or even if I’m just with him doing nothing, or even just staring at him, I will be happy. And it is also nice to know that there’s a person that is actually just like you.

Last night, was one of the happiest night I ever had, one of the best as well. Looking forward to more of that, looking forward to more adventures, with him. If given a chance. As of now, I’m just happy, really happy knowing him. I’m really grateful, thanking him that he exist. I’m really grateful that I got a chance to know him, to know him more.

I’m really running out of words, so bye, but yeah, thank you so much for last night, thank you for making me happy, again. I really did not expect that, and I was glad, it happened. No regrets, just… I don’t know, lol. I’m not even in to rushing things. I’ll go with the flow. If it is destined to happen, it will happen.

PS.

Been listening to “Safety Pin” by 5SOS and “Tadhana” by Up Dharma Down since this morning, lol. 

SEPANX

Thursday; April 09, 2015

Well, I don’t know where I will start…

In my almost five years of stay in La Salle, being a college student, I met a lot of people. Been in different blocks, met different classmates, and met different people and personalities. I’ve become the student who actually doesn’t care of what is happening in the school, in my subjects, in my classmates, that I’ll just attend my class, and then go home. I even experienced having three hour breaks, and still doesn’t eat “lunch” because I have no friends, no block mates, that I’ll just stay in kubo or in the library waiting for my next class, or sometimes I’ll just skip my class and go home. Before, I thought it was okay, who cares of being alone?

Until I met them… The BUM and also some of the AB Communication, batch 2015.

They are not really my original batch, since my original batch is 2014. But, this is the first time that I got this “separation anxiety” feeling.

I’m gonna miss those days, na aabutin tayo ng 9:00pm sa school, na lagi tayong sinusundo ni Kuya Guard, and to remind us na, 9pm na. Those late night bonding sa Pares na pag walang kanin, sa Mcdo ang bagsak. “The Joggers Unite” when our yayaan sa inuman, naging yayaan mag jogging, to have a healthy living lifestyle. “The Open Forum” plus star gazing sa Grandstand. Biglaang over nights, hulugan sa bangin sa gilid ng kubo, iwanan kung sino man ang tulog sa kubo, lol. Ano pa ba? Chubby Musubi days, nung hindi pa siya air-conditioned, haha. Starbucks days wherein isa lang ang bibili, pero lahat makikinabang. Super late uwi, kasi nag “bonding” pa, lol, walwalan, karaoke, and etc.

But, if there are sweet days, meron din naming bitter days na nag aaway ang tropa. Like yung away ni Yzon at Doms, na napapunta si Doms sa kabilang side of the kubo. Away ni Paolo at Doms, na umabot ng three weeks? Na may pag “Imma bitch, imma flirt” pa ang isa, haha. Pikunan ni Bono at Julius, kasi mali ng text si Julius kay Bono, at muntik pang masabugan si Bono sa Mcdo Pala Pala. PAG TATAMPO NI ALFRED. Cyber-war namin ni Yzon sa The BUM group, lol. And onting pikunan, pag nagkaka-hackan na ng Facebook, haha.

Those days are priceless. 5, 10 years from now, ganun pa rin kaya tayo? Are we gonna go back to Grandstand, then mag star gazing lang, then talk about life? Babalikan pa kaya natin yung kubo natin, na nag silbing bahay natin for almost a year and half? Are we still the same group? Na happy happy lang, kahit na marami ng bumabatikos, go with the flow pa din.

Thank you guys. Thanks for the memories that I’ll forever treasure, na kahit minsan naiinis ako sa iba sainyo, lol. Still, you never fail to put a smile on my face and to complete my whole college life experience. Kahit na minsan, I feel na I’m not really part of the group, okay lang, makita ko lang kayo and makasama, masaya na ko. I’m gonna miss each and every one of you, I’m gonna miss those faces and different attitudes. I’m gonna miss those kubo days. I’m happy that this group was made, that this group was “established” lol, I’m happy that I get to bond and to meet you guys. And I hope someday, kahit na professionals na tayo and may kanya kanyang buhay, sana magkaroon pa rin tayo ng time para magkita and bonding. My whole college life would not be complete kung hindi ko kayo nakilala, and I’m really thankful and blessed na nakilala ko kayo. You may not notice me, or I may not be that sweet or clingy sainyo, pero deep inside, mahal na mahal ko kayo, lol.

Madami pa kong gustong sabihin, kaso ayoko naman masyadong maging ma-drama ‘tong blog post na ‘to, lol. Basta yun, I’m really grateful, and if ever I’ll get a chance na mag rewind ng experiences sa buhay ko, I will not hesitate na bumalik, balik balikan yung masasaya nating bondings. Thank you guys! And I love you all!

Congratulations, guys! Till next time, and till we meet again! Good luck and God bless on your new journey.

PS.

Please, walang kalimutan. We have Facebook group, and we have each other numbers, so there. 

Deleted.

Thursday; April 02, 2015

I’ve been blogging since year 2010, since then, I’ve posted a lot. 75 blog posts since I started blogging, but all good and bad posts must come to an end.

So from 75, down to 10 posts. Lol. I just have to, because at some point, they don’t make sense anymore.

BOOK REVIEW: "The Maze Runner Series"

Wednesday; January 28, 2015

Done reading these book since the first week of January. I'm just gonna post my book review here in my blog, haha. 

All about how you will survive in a world full of trials, full of fake people, who's only goal is to make and see you suffer. That even those people who are close to you will and ready to betray you.

Every page/chapter is a cliff-hanger, that you will wanted to read more and witness what will happen to Thomas and to the other Gladers.

Wicked is not so good, lol

Book to Movie.

Sunday; October 12, 2014

As a reader, and a self-proclaimed book worm, I was really frustrated when the book that I’ve read becomes a movie. Like, The Fault in Our Stars and Divergent, which was led by Shailene Woodley, though she’s really a good actress and really suits to the character of Hazel Grace in TFIOS and Beatrice/Tris in Divergent, I don’t have a protest to that. What I’m frustrated is on the story in the movie. Sobrang magkaiba! Especially in Divergent, like, where are the things that I’ve read in the book? Why is it not in the movie?

Honestly speaking, I’ve watched Divergent first, then read it after because I really liked the movie. But, when I’m already reading it, I was like, why is this thing is not in the movie? This scene is important, it should be on the movie! Then, when I finished reading, I watched it again, I found myself asking the same question, finding important scenes that’s in the book that should be in the movie, but eventually, the writer of the movie did not include it. Can you feel the frustration that I’m feeling?

People should learn how to read! And not just joining the band-wagon because they hear that it will be or it is a good movie. I don’t know if the authors of the books that becomes a movie is happy with the result of those movie, or they also feel frustrated about it. “Writers” of the movie should give justice to the authors of the book. Though I understand that the whole book can’t be on the full-length movie, what I’m saying is, do not remove the important parts! Because people WHO DO NOT read will be misled and will just stick to the story that they have watched.

This Ain't Goodbye :)

Saturday; July 19, 2014

It’s kinda hard for me when I’m making this “tribute” video. It’s like emotions are coming up, I feel happy and will laugh with the pictures, but then, whenever I preview it, it’s like, “hey, I’m doing this because I’ll bid my farewell soon.” Then eventually, I started to feel sad and lonely knowing that in one week, I will already leave DPC.

It is really hard to say “goodbye” to the people whom become your family. In my almost four-months stay in DPC (woah, four months haha), it was really fun. I thought my summer will be boring because of it, but then I was wrong. I met new people, met new personalities and lastly, I met a family.

Thank you so much DPC, especially to the NSS Family. Thank you for all the lessons that you taught us. Thank you for teaching us how to become the BETTER PERSON that we always have to be. Thank you also to the memories that were built in my stay in the company. I am always grateful that I met you all, the “coolest bosses” ever, lol. You all have a special space here in my heart, especially Sir Wingard, ha-ha loljk. I won’t say goodbye because I know this is not yet the end, and I know I’ll be seeing you guys around and I know we will find time to make new memories and adventures together. Ms. Hazel, Ms. Anne, Sir Jun, Sir Angelo, Sir Zar, Ms. Jona, Ms. Belle, Ms. Tin, Ms. Mitch and Ms. Xylinne. I definitely will miss you all. Till next time and see you around!

Weekend getaway!

Saturday; April 05, 2014

Late post! He-he. Cannot actually update because we were so busy fixing our requirements for our OJT, no time for editing and stuff ha-ha. But nevertheless, here's a "re-cap" of what we did last Sunday with my beautiful girls, (Jesti, Gela and Rachel) :)

"My love for these girls is way above the sky." - Rachel Venus

NEW LIFE!

Let me/us take a selfie :P

Mini Shabu-Shabu for dinnuuuuuuuuuuh! =P~

A rock that I get from High Street's ground. Haha! Collecting rocks from the places that I've been through is now my new "hobby" =))

And video for my vlog. Lol

When? How? Why?

Tuesday; April 01, 2014

I’m in to blogging since 2009, it started all in Tumblr, and most of my posts there are reblogs. That time, I thought that if I post personal blogs there, followers will not be interested on reading it or they’ll think that I’m seeking for attention (HAHA seriously, that’s what I thought about that time) LOL so year 2010, I decided to transfer on Blogger for my personal blogs and I think that Blogger is way better and formal than Tumblr, like you’ll be able to post everything that you want without being judged or something. And that’s the end of the story, lol just kidding haha. By the way, if you wish to search for my Tumblr URL, I already deactivated my account there for some reasons that I am not in to it anymore, and I haven’t visit it for a long time since I transfer to Blogger, so there. :))

Unfortunately, I wasn’t able to manage this blog every day, like, I wasn’t able to post every day or every other day. Like, I will only be able to post a blog every day when I’m happy, depressed or not busy, haha.

But despite of that thing, this blog has something here in my heart; it’s like my dear diary, which has always been there for me, especially when I am depressed. It’s like a person where I tell ALL of my rants in my life, then it’s just there, will not complain, will just listen. So don’t be surprised if 90% of what you’ll read here are full of dramas, lol. I promise that I will manage this blog every day, if not every day, well every other day. Haha! And I will try to post food, travel, ootd’s and book review blogs. (Feelingera) HAHA!

To end this…

I would like to take this opportunity, hahaha, to thank MS. Rachel Gem Venus for inspiring me to blog every day, lol. She’s one of the reasons why I came back, (Balik loob lang ang peg?) Hahaha. Why I decided to manage my blog every day. I am a BIG FAN of her, since I’ve read all of her blogs, haha. So Rachel, if you’re reading this, hello! Haha. She’s also the reason why I am now also in to VLOGGING haha. I hope that we'll still have a lot of time to cherish moments together. Bakit kasi ngayon lang? Haha. MORE BONDING PLEASE, yun tipong every week we’ll go out and go to church, hihi. Pwede ba yun? Please, make it possible! Haha. Love you, Rachel! Thank you so so much! :-*

Read her blogs and follow her also here!!! Her Blogger URL is: mspoopypants.blogspot.com and you can subscribe on her YouTube channel, its: xoxohoneybunchxoxo or just search her name, Rachel Venus. :)

And there she is... Lol. I actually grabbed these pictures on her FB photos, haha. Love her to bits! :D

 At Mini Shabu Shabu Bonifacio High Street

At Araneta Coliseum after PASSION's life changing concert. "Let me take a selfie" lol

I missed A LOT.

Tuesday; April 01, 2014 - Happy April Fools! :D

So yeah, I really missed A LOT. I miss you, blogger/blogpost! Been busy for the past few months because of school. So today, later, haha, as long as I finish what I need to do for school AGAIN... I’m gonna blog all the highlights of my year 2014 for the past 2 or 3 months? I’m kinda lucky this year… For the past few months that have passed, well, I can say that I am really blessed. So there, just sit back and relax, lol. BLOG POSTS are cominggggggggggg!!! (later, lol. I’m going to fix first my OJT requirements and I’m going to sleep first, haha!)

And by the way, I am now also in to VLOGGING!!! Yey! Hahaha! Thank you to the one who inspired me to do that thing. Lol. Thank you, Rachel! I’ll blog something especially for you girl, haha, just wait. ;)

Subscribe in to my YouTube channel, it’s… IHEART26 so jej, haha! I did that YouTube channel way back in year 2010, so please don’t judge. HAHA! Unfortunately, it can’t be changed anymore. :( If you can’t find it, just search my name, Nicole Bernal. If you guys really can't find it... It is linked up there on my blog title. Hihi. 

Thank you guys! :*

Maybe, it's not enough. Maybe, I am not enough.

It feels like this is my first time to write a blog. I can't even remember how I start when I am posting at my blog. But well, that's not the issue here.

Hmm. Lately, I've been feeling so lonely. I don't even know why... Is it because of my school? Or is it because of my relationship? I don't know.

I am feeling so down right now. I really feel so unappreciated and unwanted... I don't know what did I do why I'm feeling this way. I am putting 200% of myself & effort in everything that I'm doing. But then, it feels like NO ONE appreciates it. The feeling of, you've done what they want you to do, you put so much effort on it. But still, they won't see your effort & sometimes they'll just ignore it. 

I'm asking myself, is it not enough? Why do some people don't know the word APPRECIATION. Man, just, why? 

Everyday, it's getting harder and harder.

Someday...

Sunday; September 02, 2010-- 18 days before my birthday!

Sometimes I'm thinking if I can have a one day treatment for myself. Wherein I'll just enjoy the day, do whatever I want, go wherever I want to go, and just be happy in a day or maybe a week. Teehee :D Like, I won't think of my problems, I'll just think of how will I be happy on that day.

These are the things that I really would love to do:

1. Go to Santorini, Greece- Every girl wants to go to Paris, but me, I really would love to go in Greece. I don't know why, but I think, Greece is such a lovely place to go to. And the history of it, I love Greek Mythology, lol. Seriously. ;) Second place I want to go to is Korea, third, London and lastly, Italy. :)

2. Light a lantern- Like in Tangled, wherein Rapunzel lit a lantern and witness the beauty of those thousands of lanterns floating in the sky, it's like lighting up my whole world.

3. Sky Diving- I'm kinda an adventurous person. Like I want to try everything in life, and sky diving is one of the thing that I want to try, feels like I'm flying.

4. Bungee Jumping- Like what I've said, I want to try everything, even it's kinda scary and knee-shaking.

5. Go to Amusement Park- I'll try all their rides, and be happy just like a kid. Buy cotton candy and wish on a well. Hihi :")

6. Be an Adventurer- I'll try all the adventures in life.. Uhmm, what I mean is... This... Go ride a cable cab, zip line, mountain climbing, ride a bike, motor cross, car race, ride a horse, go to caves and discover new things, jump in a mountain and swim. :)) And many mooooooooore! Woohoo! It sounds very tiring, but I know, I'll enjoy it, will really enjoy it. :D

7. Travel the whole world- I just want to witness the beauty of the world. :)

And lastly, I want to go to a silent place. Where I can scream all the things that I want to say, scream all my problems. Reflect on things, and relax. I'll be the happiest person if I found a silent place, where I can be alone, no pollution, no noisy people.

These are the things that will make me happy, really happy. Sounds impossible, but I'll do everything just to make these things be possible. :)

God. Faith. Sin. Existence.

Friday; August 03, 2012

Should this post be in English, Filipino, Korean, Chinese? LOL. Maybe, I'll just use TagLish, Conyo language... Like really, like puhrungggg. =)) No offense to those conyo people out there. Conyo is cool! :-bd I even use that language when I'm talking to my friends... Pag trip namin, haha. Or even to those people who are naturally born conyo. Oh how I miss Justine Silvino, best conyo person ever! Whaaaat? :))

But this blog post is not about languages guys. It's about our lesson in Philosophy of Man a while ago. Yeah, I attended my class, lol. Can someone give me an award?

Well, our lesson a while ago is about Existentialism. They are the one who doesn't have God, or doesn't believe in God. They just believe in existence. That's what I heard a while ago, correct me if I'm wrong.

Okay. Di ko na kaya. Mag tatagalog na ko! :))

Sabi nun prof ko kanina, "Tignan niyo, mas makasalanan pa ang mga Kristyano, kasi, alam nila, after nun ginawa nilang kasalanan, may pag mapapatawad sakanila, which is God."

Tama nga naman yun prof ko, mas marami ang mga ma-kasalanan na Kristyano, mas maraming Kristyano ang engage sa Pre-marital sex, (eto lang kasi yun example niya kanina) at kung ano ano pang kasalanan ang pwedeng magawa ng isang tao.

Catholic ako, pero hindi ako katulad ng ibang Catholics na O.A sa pagiging isang Katoliko. Minsan nga, nakakalimutan ko pa mag dasal bago matulog, I didn't even go to mass every Sunday. Pag ata may prayer lang bago mag start yun class ako nakakapag pray eh. Am I already a devil? Kasi hindi ko nagagampanan ang pagiging Kristyano ko?

Pag ba nagmura ako ng sunod sunod ng malulutong na mura, demonyo na ko? Pag ba hindi ako nagbasa ng bible araw araw, sobrang makasalanan na ko? If I'm not mistaken, walang rules na nag eexist na ganun. May nabanggit ba sa Bible na pag hindi mo 'to binasa, mapupunta ka na sa impyerno? Wala naman di ba? Yes, there are 10 Commandments. Is these 10 rules are followed by those Catholics/Christians that are existing? I think not. Most of them, sinusuway pa. And I'm guilty with that.

Hindi mo kailangan magpaka-santo para lang mapunta sa langit. Hindi mo kailangan mag recite ng pagkadami daming dasal, para lang masabi na "Holy person" ka. Yun mga pastor, priest, bishop... Sa tingin niyo, hindi nagkakasala yan mga yan? We don't have to be a trying-hard person para lang mapunta ka sa langit. Hindi mo rin kailangan magkaroon ng relihiyon para lang masabi na naniniwala ka kay God.

Hindi mo kailangan mag Thank you bawat segundo, para lang masabi na you're a God-loving person. Though, syempre, as a sign of gratitude to God, maging thankful pa din tayo sa mga bagay bagay na nabigay. Pero wag yun O.A... One thank you and sorry is enough. You have Him right? You believe that He can hear and see you. Kaya pag may nagawa kang kasalanan, nakikita niya na yon. At pag nakita na niyang nagsisisi ka, mapapatawad ka niya.

With this blog post, I'm not saying that I don't believe in Him and I don't consider Him as my God. What I want to tell is that, wag tayong maging O.A sa mga bagay bagay katulad nito. Tao ka, nagkakamali, gustong maka-experience ng mga dapat i-experience sa mundong ito.

We are humans, we exist, we are sinners. Hindi lahat ng makakasalamuha mo, mabait. Hindi lahat ng mangyayari sa buhay mo, maganda. We have to accept the fact that those things happen. Na kahit anong iwas mo pa sa pag gawa ng kasalanan, hindi mo 'to maiiwasan.

Marami akong kilala na "O.A" sa pagiging Kristyano, O.A sa paniniwala kay God. Every Sunday, nasa simbahan yon/sila, hindi nga lang ata Sunday eh. Kung magdasal yon/sila, dalawang minuto ata. Pero ano, hindi sila ganun ka-linis. They are not that HOLY. Kasi, hindi nila alam, may mga actions sila na kasalanan na pala ang nagagawa nila.

Meron pa. He's a ReEd professor, tinuturo niya, mga Moral sins, Moral Acts and etc. About Christian Morality ang tinuturo niya, pero ano, he didn't know how to apply it on himself. Close-minded person, and napaka inconsiderate na prof. Christian Morality? Sure ka bang binasa mo yan tinuturo mo? Sorry guys, pero bitter pa din talaga ako sa prof na 'to.

O dba, may mga tao talaga na sadyang marunong mag malinis, magpaka Diyos, at bait baitan. Para lang masabi na they are "Holy one". Pero hindi ata nila alam kung ano talaga yun ginagawa nila at isinasapuso nila.

Don't judge me on this post. Don't even hate me. I just want to express or say what I've realize a while ago listening to my Philosophy of Man prof. Kahit nga hindi ko pa siya naririnig kanina eh, matagal ko na rin naiisip 'to.

I repeat. I don't hate God. I do believe in Him. I do have faith in Him. Pero hindi ko kailangan lumuhod sa simba habang papalapit sa altar para lang mapatunayan na naniniwala ako sakanya. Hindi ko kailangan mag recite ng isang libong dasal para lang mapatunayan na naniniwala ako sakanya. Hindi ko kailangan tawagin lahat ng santo para lang masabi na maka-Diyos ako.

I'm thankful with what He gives. And I'm sorry for what I've done. One prayer a day is enough to prove that you believe in Him.

I am.

Friday; January 13, 2012- Friday the 13th! Me not unlucky at all. :D

This would be my first entry for the year 2012. Yey! And it's all about me. ;)

Who is Nicole Baldemor- Bernal?



Extro/Introvert
I laugh, I share thoughts, I talk, communicate, socialize. But every time I have a problem, I just keep it. I don't share it with others, especially, if I'm hurt. I solve it by myself. Even the most trusted friend that I have don't know what is happening to me, if I have a problem or what.

Positive
I always go for what I want, even though I only have 20%, 10% chance of having it. Or achieving it. I always say to myself, "I can do it!". I know, we can get what we want, what we want to achieve, just believe in yourself that you can.

Confident
I just have to. Without confidence, other people will just step on you. Chin up! Be proud! ;)

Clean-freak
I don't like mess. I think, everyone does. Even though I'm a lazy cat, every time I see mess around me, automatically, I'll be a "super woman" cleaning those mess. :)) Seriously.

Jovial
Being happy is not a crime. Laughing is a must. Be happy, be Budoy! =)))) Loljk. Be happy always, it makes you look beautiful. ;)

Cry-baby
I'm jovial, but, my tears run down easily every time I'm hurt. Happy, problematic, or even though I'm just watching a "show" on TV. Hahaha!

Jealous/Jealousy?
Hahaha! I don't know what word will I put. Hmm, btw, I easily get jealous. And I don't know why. -________- Even though you're just my friend, then you found a new one then you're already ignoring me, tadaaaaaaaaaaa, expect, that I'll get jealous on it.

Afraid to love
Not actually afraid to love, I'm afraid to get hurt, AGAIN. And I don't want other people to be hurt because of me. "Mabuti ng ako na lang yun nasasaktan, wag na yun ibang tao..."



Outgoing, Sensitive, Optimist, Dreamer, Achiever. :D

Strength
GOD, FAMILY, FRIENDS. Without them, I AM NOTHING. Especially God, because without Him, there's no such "Nicole Bernal" living in this world. I owe Him my life.

Weakness
FAMILY & FRIENDS. They are my happiness, they are my life. I don't know what will happen if I lose them. I love them and I'll always be thankful because I have my family and my friends. :)

I'm just a normal person living in this world. I'm not here to please anyone, if you like me, if you love me, if you want me to be your friend, then go. I don't choose people who I'll get to know, and to be my friend. If you hate me, I don't fucking care, go hate! That's what you want, I've got nothing to do with that. :)

Me, myself, don't know, or doesn't know who am really I. I'm just saying what I see on myself, what I discover on myself. We, people have different perceptive in life. We all have our own opinions, and judgment to every person that we'll meet. Thant's life, know how to risk. Know how to stop and go. Know how to enjoy life, because, like what Papa Chen said, "Life is too short". We don't know when it will end.

I live, laugh & love. ♥